Sitting and Waiting

I don't know about any of you but I am usually a pretty patient person, or so I have been told. 

I must admit I usually don't mind sitting and waiting, I usually find the time relaxing. I mean after all how much time does a home schooling mom of 6 really have to just sit and not do anything.  Of course as I am sitting I am inevitably thinking about the Ten thousand things on my TO DO list that I never seem to get close to finishing.

*side note: I used to love making lists until I figured out that every time I crossed something off my list I added two more things to the list.*

In these moments that I am forced by what ever outside force is making (or more likely God is using to make) me take a break for the moment, I find replenishment.
My husband finds this irritating, I am not sure why.

But I digress...

It seems as though I am getting tired of sitting and waiting.

It has been a year and a half since Chris was laid off.  There have been many interviews and even job offers, but they have been put on hold because of finances.  It has definitely been a time of God's provisions in our lives.  He has come through in so many ways and always with His perfect timing.  I know that the same is true with a job for my husband, but boy I am sick of sitting and waiting.

I know that all of you wives know what I mean by this.  You know how your husband coming home from work early is GREAT but it really throws off your grove.  Mind you I am not complaining, I know that many of my friends are only wishing they could be with their husbands who are serving over seas, thank you by the way for your sacrifice.  However, I am getting really tired of not having my grove (yes, I am a control freak) in case you had not already figured that out.  I WANT and NEED to miss my husband.

OK, so maybe that is the lesson that God is trying to teach me, but I thought that he already taught me that lesson and I thought that I had learned it. I know that He is in control and I am in His hands.  I can't tell you though I am really ready for Him to reveal Himself to our family.

What job will Chris get?  Should we stay in Arizona or should we move?  How much longer do we have to wait for you good and perfect will?  Not that I wouldn't wait forever, but I want to miss my husband even though I know I will cry when he goes back to work.

I know I am Crazy but I already told you that.

I guess I will just have to find some new meaning to sitting and waiting.

Be still and know that I am God. Ps 46: