Superman Complex or Super Man Complex

As many of you know this past month and a half have had many storms for us as a couple and a family. With Chris out of work and our landlord in danger of forclosure our lives have been extremely uncertain in many ways. Through it all it amazed me how Chris seemed to be completely unscathed by any of this. He was certain that we would be ok and it really appeared that nothing was truly getting to him. It is nice to have a man so strong and in control as an emotionally driven woman, but I was starting to worry that me being so uncertain was going to somehow make my man crumble. I kept pushing him to talk to me and tell me what was going on with him and maybe what direction he thought he might go in the work department; he really wanted to get out of the real estate market, understandable considering. Well I finally go my wish. Thursday night my Superman or so I thought was human to me. It seems as though I have allowed myself to see my husband as something more than human. I have no doubt that my husband is a "Super Man," he is not "Superman." I am greatful of God's ever so gentle and subtle reminders. As I realized I don't allow myself to be part of my husbands vulnerability, I am truly missing out on one of God's most precious blessings. God created man in his own image: strong, capable, protective, dangerous, wild, and lets not forget loving, sensitive, warm and safe. God is faithful to his word and he does work things out for the good of those who love him. So I guess what I learned is that maybe the whole "Superman Complex," was mine all along. LLove and Peace to you all.

May Flowers, Thank God for the Arpil Showers.

I am praying that the rain that was dumped on my family in the month of April is going to yeild a beautiful garden in May. I know that will. Chris is still looking for work, our savings is getting low but I know that the Lord will provide for us. In the mean time I am doing the end of my spring cleaning and trying to pack all the unnecessary winter clothes and any extra stuff not in use. We know that we are going to have to move at some point but we don't know when that point will be but why wait to the last minute, right? Praying about me going to work again, I have done respite care for children with disabilites in the past. Of course I need to try and get everything at home in order before I take on another job, but might not have to much time for that.

I am also mentally and spiritually preparing myself for yet another teenage daughter. In 11 days I will have two 13 yr olds. Yes, that is correct I did say two. I love all my kids but I am not kidding I think they get brain transplants at 13, everything changes overnight. Not all of it is a bad thing, it is just a hard thing. You have to parent teenagers much differently than you do children. So mostly it is just bad for me. Now I have to figure out a new way to love my teenager the same way, it is a "Love Language," thing. It is just hard to go from parenting a 4 yr old one moment and a 14 yr old the next (Caela will be 14 in 1 month). They do grow up so fast. I am so glad that I have chosen to invest so much time in them, what a blessing it is to have the priviledge to homeschool. I know there are days when it doesn't feel like a blessing to have 6 kids asking a question while I try to pee, but it truely is.

And as for me, as Mother's Day approaches, it might be ok for me to take some me time. It is so ironic how this day works, I want a break from all the work I do, while at the same time I want to spend time with my kids. I want the kids to look perfect for church in the morning, work. I want to look good for church in the morning, get up 30 minutes earlier than usual. I want to leave the house clean when we leave, work. So what does Mother's Day really mean for mothers? If I figure it out I will let you know.