Update

Update coming soon.

We Serve An Awesome God!

I apologize in advance for the length of this post.  It could have been so much longer.

This morning as I sat down to do my devotions and catch up on my blog reading.  I got the urge to go back and read all that I had blogged since I started this blog two years ago.

Wow! What a journey!  We have been blessed in every way and then some.  We have enjoyed times of abundance and been kept in times of need.  I noticed one common theme throughout each and every post; and that is, that we truly serve Faithful, Loving, and Awesome God. I reveled and rejoiced at His provisions.

No matter where we were or what was going on in our lives God has always provided.  We have some how never been without.  It is an amazing feeling to know that He really does hold us in his hands, like the Sunday School songs says, "He's got the whole world in his hands."

As I reread all that I had written I began truly rejoicing and thanking God for all that he has done for me and our family.  We have been struggling again with a financial issue not knowing where or how we were going to be able to come up with the money we needed to pay for Chris's last summer session of school.  Without that money he would be ineligible to graduate and would have to wait until fall to resubmit for graduation.  We have been praying about it and we both knew that God would provide but we are human after all and sometimes get a little antsy waiting.  Since Chris is done next Friday and we still had no idea where we were going to come up with the money; we have both been a little stressed about it. 

And like always, today, we got our answer.

God Provides!

This afternoon, Chris called to inform me that he had received a special grant from ASU that covered all but $35 of what we owed for his tuition. PRAISE THE LORD!

I cried.  I know that my time of rejoicing and remembering early today had humbled me, and when I was done with my morning devotion I knew that it would be fine.  God had not brought us this far to let us drown now. He had everything taken care of and all He wanted or even need from me was my faith and trust in Him that He and He alone knows what is best for me and my family.

This blog, I know does little justice to the joy and comfort I feel in my heart that comes from a life in Jesus.  No words can truly express what I feel.  I want to shout it from the rooftop.  There are about a thousand praise and worship songs that have been ringing in my head.

So I leave you with this, in good times and in bad,

"When upon life's billows you are tempest tossed,
When you are discouraged thinking all is lost,
Count your many blessings, name them one by one and it will surprise you what the Lord hath done.

Count your blessings; name them one by one. 
Count your blessings; see what God hath done.
Count your blessings; name them one by one.
Count your many blessings; see what God hath done.


Are you ever burdened with a load of care?
Does the cross seem heavy you are called to bear?
Count your many blessings; every doubt will fly, and you will be singing as the days go by.

Count your blessings; name them one by one.
Count your blessings; see what God hath done.
Count your blessings; name them one by one.
Count your many blessings; see what God hath done.


When you look at others with their lands and gold,
Think that Christ has promised you His wealth untold.
Count your many blessings, money can not buy your reward in heaven nor your home on high.

Count your blessings; name them one by one.
Count your blessings; see what God hath done.
Count your blessings; name them one by one.
Count your many blessings; see what God hath done.


So a mid the conflict, whether great or small,
Do not be discouraged; God is over all.
Count your many blessings; angles will attend, help and comfort give you to your journey's end.

Count your blessings; name them one by one.
Count your blessings; see what God hath done.
Count your blessings; name them one by one.
Count your many blessings; see what God hath done."

Boy Oh Boy

I love my son, he is my little man.  He has been such a blessing to my life and our family.  I can't even imagine our family or life without him.

For the last couple of years Gabe has had to share a room with a sister, because we have not really had the room for him to fly solo.

Well, with at the rate he is growing as well as his baby sister Carisa, who is 3 years older, it is becoming more difficult for them to share a room. 

So this weekend we will be shuffling kids around.  This is exciting for some of our kids and upsetting for others.  It also brings with it a lot of work.  Especially since I have been in declutter mode.  If I haven't used it then I don't need it.  Needless to say the garage sale pile is growing fast.  I can not have it soon enough really.  I just keep finding more and more stuff that we don't need. 

So starting on Saturday my cute little boy will have a room of his own.  This means that I have to put three girls in one room, but I think it will be a good move as soon as they are all used to it.  It is going to be tight, but I know they can do it.  I just hope we (Chris and Me) survive the first week.

What is it that is so great about simplifying your life and your home? 
It feels so liberating, I love it.

In the past week I have clear out and re-purposed so much stuff.  It is almost like living in a new house.
Luckily the garage sale date is set and the proceeds are spoken for.  The kids are thrilled since mom said they can have a bake sale and lemonade stand.

The Winds of Change!

The Winds of Change have come to the Fox home.  We are very grateful that these changes are of the positive nature. 

Changes (in no particular order)

#1)   Chris was offered a job working with the Pinal County Attorney’s office.  YAY!  He accepted and started on, Monday, June 27.  We survived his first week.

#2)  Our oldest child is now 16, still without her license at the moment, but as soon as she masters driving daddy’s car (it is a standard transmission) she will be on her way I am sure.  Please pray for my nerves  and for her safety.

#3)  College graduations are right around the corner.  Chris has submitted for his graduation, if he keeps it up he will be graduating Summa Cum Laude,  with a Bachelor’s in Social Justice and Political Inquiry (minor). I am so proud of him!!!  I am one class away from two Associates degrees and will graduate in December.  I needed a break!

#4)  My baby boy is SIX!!!!!!  It seems like it was only a few days ago I was holding that precious little bundle in my arms.  Now, I can barely hold him at all.  Here is what he thinks about being such a big boy.  And I quote…

“Mom, Carisa is your real baby, not me.”

"I love you, Mom, but I just like being with Daddy more than you.”

“Mommy, you are number five on my list.” (the list is his pretty girl list, at least he is honest)

Unfortunately, he is still a mama’s boy, as soon as my real baby (Carisa) is on my lap, he is sure to come back and take back his claim to it. While Carisa is sure to remind him that he stole mommy from her.  I can feel the love.  He is a typical male he loves me when it is convenient for him, but who can blame him he does have 5 other moms.

#5) Desperate times call for desperate measures:  So I am decluttering my home and selling almost everything that has been sitting collecting dust for 6 months or more.  I think my kids are a bit nervous that they could be for sale in the near future.  The garage is filling up fast.  Why does it have to be 100 million degrees outside?  I could be having a garage sale right now.  Thank you for Craigslist.

#6)  I am planning to launch my very own, very secret home-based business very soon.  I am super excited about this new venture in my life.  The best part about it is that I am able to start this business with my daughters.

Happy New Year From the Foxden!

Happy New Year from the Foxes!!!!!



Well as another year begins I remember my good intentions to send out a Christmas Card has come and gone once again.


Thank you all the family members who continually send us a card each year.


So this year has been quite an adventure for our family.


Chris and I were both in school full time this last year.  Since he was out of work we decided to take that time and finish our educations.  Chris is 9 months away from finishing his Bachelor's Degree in Criminal Justice minoring in Political Science.  His long term hope is to work for a federal agency, but we pray for God's will for our family first.  I will be finished with my AA in Special Education in May, I will continue with my Bachelor's when Chris is finished and we find out if he will be moving us due to being hired with a federal agency, I am hoping.


The kids are growing fast, I wish I could find a way to slow them down.

Caela is 15 and a half, and is in 10th grade. She has her permit and we are all still alive. Poor thing she has to learn how to drive on the family Excursion which of course is HUGE. She is doing great in her studies and I couldn't live my life without her, she is my right hand and sometimes brain.



 

Cori is 14.  She is an amazing artist and young lady.  She is in 9th grade this year. She is also a great student and a great help to me. I call her my left hand and sometimes brain. Considering I have been in school full time, homeschooling and keeping up with daily mom work there is no way I could do it without these two most wonderful young women that God has blessed us with.

 Caesi is 11 and has passed up her sisters in the height department and is now our tallest child.  She is well on her way to following in her two older sisters footsteps to become a great young lady as well.  She is in 6th grade this year and can't wait to be part of the teen group. She is working hard at school and at play still.  She does an excellent job and keeping track of her little brother running around outside.

Codee is 10 and is tyring to grow up too fast.  It is hard for her to walk in the shadow of her three big sisters.  However, she is well on her way to becoming just like them.  She is in 5th grade and working very hard at school. We can't wait to see what her talents are and how we can help direct her to become the women that God wants her to be.











 

Carisa is 8 and is the princess of our little clan.  She can be found somewhere in the house with a princess costume on, dressing her cat Sassy.  She loves animals and wants all of them as well.  She has a heart of gold and frequently brings our family to tears by reminding us of why God gave us each other.  She is in 3rd grade this year. She is learning fast, but seems in no hurry to grow up.












Gabe is 5 and is my little man and daddy's little buddy.  He is in kindergarten this year and loves it most of the time.  He very rarely lets me leave the house alone because I need to have a boy with me to protect me. Thank goodness he has not asked to bring his new BB gun with us to protect me. He adds such a unique dynamic to our family and has me saying things that I never thought I would say in my life.




 

So far this year has started out with a bang.  God has provided for us once again as he always does. Chris was rehired for the title company that laid him off almost two years ago.  We are very grateful that He has provided for us once again and always in His perfect time.  So it looks like this year will be another great adventure.  I will be pretty much on my own holding down the fort as he works full time and takes 6 classes this semester.  Thank goodness I have my girls and a husband willing to sacrifice so much for our family.  We thank and praise God for his goodness and provisions this last year and can't wait to see what He has in store for us this year.  We know it will be great.

God Bless,

The Foxes

Chris, Gina, Caela, Cori, Caesi, Codee, Carisa, and Gabe

The Joys of a Home Schooling Home

Well it seems as though the road of home schooling that we have been traveling on has passed a gigantic mile stone.

What is it you might ask?

Well it is bitter sweet for this Mom let me tell you.

Drum roll and cymbals crash!

Yes, Our last child has started kindergarten and has jumped into learning.  Since it is Gabriel, I literally mean JUMPED!  He jumps off of everything.

At our house kindergarten brings with it a ton of transformations, since it is an extremely hands on learning experience in our home. 

Gabe's latest fascination is making words with the magnet letters on the refrigerator. We started with the important things first. Names, I love how he put them in order, he came up with it all on his own.  Well, maybe family Bible time helped.  But it was a great lesson to talk about when he was done, anyway. 

Ahhh, the beauty of home school, every moment is a teachable moment.

The kids love it!  Seriously moms just keep saying it, like a mantra.  Since when they become teenagers they roll their teenage eyes at these most wonderful moments.

This is his latest creation. CUBSKISSHIDEIGLOOFOX or for those of us who can't read that, it says cubs-kiss-hide-igloo-fox.  None of us know why he wanted those words but he did.  The best part is when he showed his daddy. 

Gabe: "Daddy, look at the word I made."
Dad: "Wow, did you do it all by yourself?"
Gabe: "No, Mom and Cori are telling me the letters but I am doing all the work."
Dad: "Oh, OK, Good Job Buddy."

Well this concludes this bittersweet Mommy moment.  Hope you all enjoyed it as much as I did.

Sitting and Waiting

I don't know about any of you but I am usually a pretty patient person, or so I have been told. 

I must admit I usually don't mind sitting and waiting, I usually find the time relaxing. I mean after all how much time does a home schooling mom of 6 really have to just sit and not do anything.  Of course as I am sitting I am inevitably thinking about the Ten thousand things on my TO DO list that I never seem to get close to finishing.

*side note: I used to love making lists until I figured out that every time I crossed something off my list I added two more things to the list.*

In these moments that I am forced by what ever outside force is making (or more likely God is using to make) me take a break for the moment, I find replenishment.
My husband finds this irritating, I am not sure why.

But I digress...

It seems as though I am getting tired of sitting and waiting.

It has been a year and a half since Chris was laid off.  There have been many interviews and even job offers, but they have been put on hold because of finances.  It has definitely been a time of God's provisions in our lives.  He has come through in so many ways and always with His perfect timing.  I know that the same is true with a job for my husband, but boy I am sick of sitting and waiting.

I know that all of you wives know what I mean by this.  You know how your husband coming home from work early is GREAT but it really throws off your grove.  Mind you I am not complaining, I know that many of my friends are only wishing they could be with their husbands who are serving over seas, thank you by the way for your sacrifice.  However, I am getting really tired of not having my grove (yes, I am a control freak) in case you had not already figured that out.  I WANT and NEED to miss my husband.

OK, so maybe that is the lesson that God is trying to teach me, but I thought that he already taught me that lesson and I thought that I had learned it. I know that He is in control and I am in His hands.  I can't tell you though I am really ready for Him to reveal Himself to our family.

What job will Chris get?  Should we stay in Arizona or should we move?  How much longer do we have to wait for you good and perfect will?  Not that I wouldn't wait forever, but I want to miss my husband even though I know I will cry when he goes back to work.

I know I am Crazy but I already told you that.

I guess I will just have to find some new meaning to sitting and waiting.

Be still and know that I am God. Ps 46:

Starting a Company

For quite sometime now my husband has wanted to get me LLC'd.  While I love the idea of running my own family business, but OH THE WORK!  However, we have the lawyer, we have the paper work, we have the money, now all we need is a the name.

Hmmmm! What does a woman name her company that she would like to run with her 5 daugthers.  We would be making all sorts of wonerful crafts like personalized throw pillows.  Turn old t-shirts, baby's favorite blanket, into a pillow that they can keep, or turn cool t shirts into a blanket.  So basically we take your cool old stuff and turn it into something new and just as cool.  We will also make new stuff too, we crochet and sew and we love it, plus we can all do it together. 

I must admit I might take forever to come up with a name because I am just not ready to start a company. Oh who knows.  God please help.

Fox Family Update

I don't know what it is that keeps me from blogging.  I read so many blogs everyday yet I never seem to find the time to write in my own. I always find so much peace here.  So here is the update on our family.

Our last birthday is next Wednesday. Gabriel wraps up the kids birthday mayhem that I deal with every year. 

Which was a real joy this year while I was packing and moving.


My poor daughters had to make their own cupcakes (they loved it) but, they won't let mommy live it down that mommy's baby boy got this.

 

Now, I always make each of my kids birthdays special even if it kills me but, I must say some of them are much easier to please than others.  Note: there is not even frosting on her cupcake. Just the way she likes it. 15 candles didn't fit on it either which she was very happy about.

Chris and I are still in school full time, even over the summer.  I must say that he is much crazier than I am as he is doing double classes both summer sessions. Unfortunately for me summer school is leaving me little time to unpack, plus we downsized quite a bit so finding new ways to make it all fit with the few hours I have has been interesting so hopefully this weekend I will be able to get it finished and post some pictures next week.

We are moving, Finally,

So it is finally official. The Fox family has a new address at least for the next year anyway. The thought of moving again in a year makes my stomach crawl but God is, and will be with me always.  Please pray that God will give me strength and energy, moving is exhausting (as all you women know).

So I decided that I would give myself a little reminder and refresher. This is something that I posted in April of '09 but since I packed my hard copy already this is the only one that I had to read.


A woman once fretted over the usefulness of her life. She feared she was wasting her potential being a devoted wife and mother.

She wondered if the time and energy she invested in her husband and children would make a difference. At times she got discouraged, because so much of what she did seemed to go unnoticed and unappreciated.

“Is it worth it?” she often wondered, “Is there something better that I could be doing with my time?”

It was during these moments of questioning that she heard the still, small voice of her heavenly Father speak to her heart.

“You are a wife and a mother because that is what I have called you to be. Much of what you do is hidden from public eye,

But I notice.

Most of what you give is done without remuneration,

But I am your reward.

Your husband can not be the man I have called him to be without your support. Your influence upon him is greater than you think and more powerful than you will ever know. I bless him through your service and honor him through your love.

Your children are precious to Me, even more precious than they are to you. I have entrusted them to your care, to raise them for Me. What you invest in them is an offering to Me. You may never be in the public spotlight, but your obedience shines as a bright light before Me.

Continue on.

Remember you are My servant

Do all to please Me.”

Author Unknown

What ever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving. Colossians 3:23,24

The Big Date

Not many mothers in this world are as lucky as I am. My precious son, has been anxiously waiting for mommy to be done with school so that he could "Take me to a date."

The money has been sitting on my night stand patiently waiting. 4 quarters, 4 dimes, 4 nickels, and 4 pennies, yes 4 of everything because that is how old he is.

He has had it planned out for three months now. First we have to go eat at his favorite restaurant in the whole wide world. Can you guess where we are?

You guess it! Costco it is, for pizza , a hot dog and a churro. Daddy gave him some money so that he could pay for our date. It was sooo cute. 

Isn't he so cute?

Next it was time to go to the Lego store for mommy to buy him some Lego's.  Mommy has no clue about Lego's, that is daddy's thing so this is going to be an adventure. To Gabriel any store with a Lego aisle is the Lego store so mommy took him to Walmart.  The Chandler Fashion Center is far. He was very excited because daddy has never taken him to that Lego store, it was lots of fun.

Then it was time to come home. Mommy's truck was very dirty so we decided to get it washed. It was quite enlightening as he explained to me everything that the machines were doing. He is so smart when it comes to mechanical things.

We had a great time, and made memories to last me a lifetime. I know that one day I will not be the woman in his life. I hope and pray that God blesses him with an amazing woman of God to take my place. What a blessing this little man is to me and my life.

Please help us pray.

Ok so I should really not be blogging right now but I just can't help it. I love it! It really is the best therapy.

Now to why I am here.

As many of you heard, our landlord has been trying for some months now to short sale the home we are renting. He finally failed a month ago and the house foreclosed. We have to move only there are a few hick-ups.

#1.) Chris is still unemployed and looking for a job
#2.) We have no clue where we want to live except we know we want to move out of the Queen Creek/San Tan Valley area.
#3.) This is a good one. We just found out that Chris has a 401K account from when he worked at Intel (5 years ago) worth a great deal of money. Praise the Lord for this one we were so surprised and grateful.
#4.) Chris interviewed for a job in Florence (hey at this point a job is a job), after the interview he was approached by one of the interviewers who informed him that there was a job that would be opening up in her town. She is the HR manager for the Coolidge Police department. She told Chris to call the Lt. that was doing all of the interviewing.
#5.) Chirs interviewed for the job on Monday and the Lt. started all of the background stuff that same day. It sounds like this might be a promising possibility.
#6.) If he gets the job we would need to live in Coolidge or Casa Grande. This is fine with us, but here is the kicker. We have to be out of this house by May 28 and we don't really want to commit to living in Coolidge or Casa Grande until we know if he gets the job so here is where the prayer part comes in.

We don't want to put the cart before the horses so to speak so we are waiting and praying for God's good and perfect will to be reveled to us. We are asking every one to pray with us the focus of our prayer is "Not my will but Thine be done." We know that He is taking care of us as he always has and as he always will. We know that what ever the path He chooses for us He will make it all go smoothly.

Thank you everyone for your prayers.

Easter 2010

We had a wonderful day celebrating the Resurrection of our Lord Jesus Christ.



This year we watched, "The Passion of the Christ" with Caela and Cori, on Good Friday. It was a heartbreaking undertaking for all involved. I am sure it left a lasting impression on their young hearts. They are both amazing young women who are both becoming amazing women of God, we are very blessed to have them.



We were very lucky in that we got to spend this blessed day with both sets of grandparents.



We had a great day, and are very grateful for the wonderful blessings that God has given us. What an amazing gift the forgiveness of our sins truly is.

Better Late Than Never

Happy Birthday To My Baby Codee

Here is how we celbrated her 10th birthday. I can't believe she is already 10, it is amaizing how fast time goes by.


Our birthday girl at the zoo. This is what she wanted to do on her special day. I was a perfect day. We had to take Rice Crispy Treats because a cake was too hard.





As per her request we had homemade blueberry waffles for dinner. They were delicious.



All in all, I think she had a great day. We did as well as we got to spend the entire day together as a family reminicing about the day our precious Codee was born.






She is an amazing gift from God that we can not even begin to imagine our lives without. We thank God for her every day, and the special person she is. She has been a loud but wonderful blessing.

The Fox Family 4-1-1

As many of you know our landlord has been struggling through the foreclosure process. Well he finally lost and the house we are renting went back to the bank. This means that the Foxes will be moving. To where? We have no idea. We are thinking about getting out of the Queen Creek area and closer to more job opportunities for Chris. He has been without a job now for a year, but God is gracious and has provided for us in many many ways. Chris has had some odd jobs here and there, and I have been working part time. We are both in school;what an adventure and challenge this last year has been. I love how God chooses to run us through the ringer of purification. We know that God has a place for us, and are trusting him to reveal it to us at the proper time. We are thankful for all of this provisions and his love.

Matthew 6:25-34 NKJV

"Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap not gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?
"So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is , and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
"Therefore do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

Where do you find the time?

It seems these days that there are just not enough hours in My day to get it all done. I sit and read all these wonderful blogs from so many wonderful friends and family and I wonder.

Where do you guys find the time?

Maybe I am missing something.

Maybe I have a misconception of what your lives are truly like. Maybe you are blogging with a sink full of dishes and a love seat covered in unfolded laundry. Books, puzzles, and Legos are covering your family room floor too as you sit and take time for yourself and what is really important.

I am sure it is no surprise to most of you that I am a perfectionist. Oldest Child syndrome what can I say, not my fault I was born first, I'll just have to take that one up with the Man upstairs I suppose. My point in all of that was just this maybe I need to let go of perfect in my sense and grab on to a new perfect in God's sense.

After all what is perfect anyway?

From where I am sitting it is just an other reason for my continual failure; an unatainable standard and expectation of myself.

Oh, how I hate the feeling of needing worldly perfection.

Oh, how I long for allowing God to complete His perfection in me.

Sometimes It Pays Off

Ok I must start by sharing a tradition of our family. On birthdays in our house each member of our family has to say what they love about the special person of the day before we pray for dinner.

That being said, the other night out of no where and on no one's birthday Gabriel decided he wanted to say what he love about all of his sisters. His comments were very sweet and of course very 4 year old boyish. Well this started the ball rolling and soon Carisa wanted to say what she love about everybody. So one by one we went through our entire family. By the end of the session there wasn't a dry eye in the house, even daddy had tears rolling down his cheeks. Especially because of the final comment made by Carisa before the bedtime prayer.

Carisa said, "I am thankful for my family, because they fill my heart with love." For a seven year old she sure has it right.

It is moments like these as a mother that you know you have done something right. It was quite a change from earlier that same day. I as sick of telling children to stop being so mean to each other and to think about how they would feel if someone was doing that to them. I was at my wits end and God sent a blessing and a reminder that we truly need to have the "Heart of a Child."

I can only hope and pray that we begin to share more of these spontaneous moments of appreciation for each other, remembering how wonderful it is to have a family that truly knows how to love, even if we don't do it all the time.

I guess the forced say something nice about your sibling on their birthday has paid off.

I am Back

Hi everyone, I am finally back to my blog, which I missed dearly. The last four months have been an adventure. I will be posting a New Year's letter soon.

My Caela

Well, I can't believe it but my baby Caela is 14 and going to graduate from the 8th grade at the homeschool conference. It hardly seems possible that the tiny 4lbs. 15oz baby girl that I brought home from the hospital is almost as big as me.

Time sure does pass by so quickly. I have hardly had time to let it sink in, that my baby, this baby, that was so tiny, fragile and mine is on the brink of womanhood. It has been a blessing in so many ways.

As many of you know a daughter is like having a window into your own soul. I can't thank God enough for that, I think that I have learned more as her mother than she has learned as my daughter. She I hope reflects the best parts of me and at times I see her reflect the worst parts, but we get to work on those together.

She has such a passion for God and strives always to do his will. She puts me to shame most of the time, the kid does her devotions every day no matter what. I need to be more like her.

Yet even though she tries so hard to be grown up she is still just a kid and I am glad that she can still be one. I love her dearly and am glad to share a piece of her with all of you.

Superman Complex or Super Man Complex

As many of you know this past month and a half have had many storms for us as a couple and a family. With Chris out of work and our landlord in danger of forclosure our lives have been extremely uncertain in many ways. Through it all it amazed me how Chris seemed to be completely unscathed by any of this. He was certain that we would be ok and it really appeared that nothing was truly getting to him. It is nice to have a man so strong and in control as an emotionally driven woman, but I was starting to worry that me being so uncertain was going to somehow make my man crumble. I kept pushing him to talk to me and tell me what was going on with him and maybe what direction he thought he might go in the work department; he really wanted to get out of the real estate market, understandable considering. Well I finally go my wish. Thursday night my Superman or so I thought was human to me. It seems as though I have allowed myself to see my husband as something more than human. I have no doubt that my husband is a "Super Man," he is not "Superman." I am greatful of God's ever so gentle and subtle reminders. As I realized I don't allow myself to be part of my husbands vulnerability, I am truly missing out on one of God's most precious blessings. God created man in his own image: strong, capable, protective, dangerous, wild, and lets not forget loving, sensitive, warm and safe. God is faithful to his word and he does work things out for the good of those who love him. So I guess what I learned is that maybe the whole "Superman Complex," was mine all along. LLove and Peace to you all.